Listening to John Mayer the Village Sessions - In repair
Today was the last of my exams. I had a total onslaught of 2 exams. I wasn't pressed or stressed to do them. So I'm not bragging, cause I can relate with those with exam after exam to study for. So for those students still putting in the effort. Keep on truckin.
But I think it's best with me only having 2 exams and the way the semester has gone for me. Lately you can catch me staring into oblivion. But my mind is secured closely to earth. Im in a bit of tailspin and my mind goes from one agenda of life to the next. My heart is pressed up against my chest and knocking firmly reminding me to take in some air.
I've got lots going on. I'm going out to Vancouver to see my Dad. YC is coming up fast. And what to do with the summer? It's all in the air. With choices to make and money to save.
Canucks are into the 2nd round. But it's going to be some hard work and goals from the Sedins and Naslund to win this one. Or it's golfing season with the Flames.
Peace ya'll and say a quick prayer for me when you have the chance and dido for those who need a prayer as well. Let me know.
MD
Wednesday, April 25, 2007
Thursday, April 19, 2007
Wednesday, April 18, 2007
Goodnight till morning dawn
April showers shower snow not rain. But in the slow moving fall of the snow, it feels like rain. So wet to my feet, it feels like traces of back home. The sun shines a little longer at night, giving a good glimpse of what tomorrow could bring. But as the bright light burns out, I am looking for a spark once again. I breathe, my heart grows faint. I breathe again and my heart pumps once more.
Along the way, I've made memorials of the things I have lost along the way. Put to bed what is no longer near or far. But only a distant memory far and in between the recesses of my heart, soul and mind. I say wave goodbye to sour memories and even to memories that seized the day. Only wishing to find and create such moments as those again one day. I miss the late nights, the laughter in between what was suppose to be serious a moment. Right now I am contemplating resting for awhile in deep slumber. But lately my dreams of once great escape has been invaded by the past and its long awaited arrival is here.
So as the shadow proves the Son shine. I will walk a narrow and straight path. Looking in silence, waiting under the wing I call saviour. Because I know somewhere answers will be answered and trials will have (soul)utions. So again I end with lyrics that have truly made my mouth speak what my heart couldnt say at the start.
I can't keep losing sleep over this. No I can't and now I cannot stop pacing. Give me a few hours I'll have this all sorted out. If my mind would just stop racing. This is over my head But underneath my feet. Cause by tomoroow morning I'll have this thing beat. And everything will be back to the way that it was. I wish that it was just that easy. Would you catch me if I fall out of what I fell in. Dont be surprised if I collapse down at your feet again. I don't want to run away from this I know that I just don't need this. (Lifehouse)
Along the way, I've made memorials of the things I have lost along the way. Put to bed what is no longer near or far. But only a distant memory far and in between the recesses of my heart, soul and mind. I say wave goodbye to sour memories and even to memories that seized the day. Only wishing to find and create such moments as those again one day. I miss the late nights, the laughter in between what was suppose to be serious a moment. Right now I am contemplating resting for awhile in deep slumber. But lately my dreams of once great escape has been invaded by the past and its long awaited arrival is here.
So as the shadow proves the Son shine. I will walk a narrow and straight path. Looking in silence, waiting under the wing I call saviour. Because I know somewhere answers will be answered and trials will have (soul)utions. So again I end with lyrics that have truly made my mouth speak what my heart couldnt say at the start.
I can't keep losing sleep over this. No I can't and now I cannot stop pacing. Give me a few hours I'll have this all sorted out. If my mind would just stop racing. This is over my head But underneath my feet. Cause by tomoroow morning I'll have this thing beat. And everything will be back to the way that it was. I wish that it was just that easy. Would you catch me if I fall out of what I fell in. Dont be surprised if I collapse down at your feet again. I don't want to run away from this I know that I just don't need this. (Lifehouse)
Monday, April 16, 2007
I blog cause I can ...
**Warning: This blog will probably be useless**
Monday (Everybodys favorite day)
Thanks to all those who commented on my last blog. I got four in one blog. I guess people are reading this. Props to Tim for responding back to my anonymous comment/reader. Tim you pretty much explained what I was thinking. I thank my anonymous reader for challenging me to think about what I had written down. But I guess I was more or less writing this for readers with essentially the same views and faith I have. But to my dismay I forget that my blogs are publish on that site we all call facebook. And hey! We all know that we aren't all networked the same. Props and kudos to all of you who had responded.
Just add Sobeys ...
Lately I've been feeling the heat at work. Not cause I've been slacking off. But cause I feel like I have to live up to expectations of a manager. My boss puts so much on me and I just don't know how to deal. I do the same work as a assistant minus the ordering of stock and the expectations are still there to do well and to over exceed. My boss has given me Assistant manger shifts to do some odd jobs that require me to be there an hour earlier. 6am WAH WAH! But that means I get up at 4:30 instead of 5:30. WAH WAH again. But hey sleep is sleep. He's offered me the position, but he says I have to quit school. My quick response to that was "Did you just hear yourself say that". Quit my education so I can lift and sell produce for the rest of my life. No thank you. At time I love my job and other times I wish I could just throw down my apron and walk out the front door. But I take a breath... count to 10 and tell myself that I am only passing through.
Currently reading:
Monday (Everybodys favorite day)
Thanks to all those who commented on my last blog. I got four in one blog. I guess people are reading this. Props to Tim for responding back to my anonymous comment/reader. Tim you pretty much explained what I was thinking. I thank my anonymous reader for challenging me to think about what I had written down. But I guess I was more or less writing this for readers with essentially the same views and faith I have. But to my dismay I forget that my blogs are publish on that site we all call facebook. And hey! We all know that we aren't all networked the same. Props and kudos to all of you who had responded.
Just add Sobeys ...
Lately I've been feeling the heat at work. Not cause I've been slacking off. But cause I feel like I have to live up to expectations of a manager. My boss puts so much on me and I just don't know how to deal. I do the same work as a assistant minus the ordering of stock and the expectations are still there to do well and to over exceed. My boss has given me Assistant manger shifts to do some odd jobs that require me to be there an hour earlier. 6am WAH WAH! But that means I get up at 4:30 instead of 5:30. WAH WAH again. But hey sleep is sleep. He's offered me the position, but he says I have to quit school. My quick response to that was "Did you just hear yourself say that". Quit my education so I can lift and sell produce for the rest of my life. No thank you. At time I love my job and other times I wish I could just throw down my apron and walk out the front door. But I take a breath... count to 10 and tell myself that I am only passing through.
Currently reading:
- Four loves by C.S. Lewis
- Chapter 14 of John
- June 2005 Issue of TRANSWORLD:SURF "Kelly Slater's all time Session"
Nhl Playoffs: The Canucks as of today are leading the series 2-1. They need to find the O in the fence. Hit even harder. A get better starts. AV keep the twins and the Naslund together (PLEASE). As for my favorite Flamers to hate. They are behind in the 0-2 against the Wings. I've watched the games and they don't look like the team I had imagined when I said back in March and I quote, "They may not win on the road, but this team is built for the playoffs." Ahh well throw out that theory. If they don't win this next game at HOME. They are done, like Oil.
Currently spinning:
- Ride - Cary Brothers
- The way I are - Timbaland feat. Keri Hilson & D.O.E
- Shadowfeet - Brooke Fraser
- Devotion - Hillsongs United
- Give it to me - Nelly Furtado feat. Timbaland & JT
- Dig this vibe - DJ Krush
- Let the love in - Goo Goo Dolls
- Everything - Michael Buble
Okay thats it.. I know I have more spinning... But I'll blog later cause I can.
Sunday, April 8, 2007
The Renaissance in Resurrection
While looking through the networks of friends I have on facebook, I came upon one of my friends status that said "Celebrating Zombie Jesus Weekend". Sometimes as believers in Christ we just need to laugh and I did. It was quite humorous....
A theme that has chased me around for the last few weeks has been perseverance. How do I get through what I am currently facing without succumbing to the pressure? How does my hope/faith in Christ become application in my existence here in on earth? How do I walk on water, without getting my feet wet? I still bust out the Rocky Quote about rainbows and sunshine...
I look to the Cross. I'm reminded today on Easter Sunday that it is very important to know that if Christ was not raised from the dead. All is for not. Christ died to pay the price that mankind could not repay God. The debt was far to large of amount that exceeded the riches of the world. I once heard Tony Campolo talk about the worst person to ever walk on the face of the earth? He asked the audience, some said Hitler, Ferdinand Marcos, Kim II Sung and the list went on. Campolo response to all of those answers were no. His response and answer to his question shocked me. Jesus. At that moment when Christ was crucified at the cross. Jesus was like a sponge that absorbed all evil and took upon himself all of mankind's sin past, present and future sins to satisfy Gods wrath. But on the third day Christ rose again and conquered death and gave way for man to have a relationship with God, a abundant and full life and hope that creates a rebirth, a renaissance in every man, woman and child.
God has opened a door for everyone to come and experience this renaissance (a renewal of life, vigor, interest, etc.; rebirth; revival: a moral renaissance) that comes through the resurrection in Christ. You may be reading this and thinking how improbable this may sound. Or how you have no need for a man hung on a cross. How can so many people be so wrong? How can they continue on, when life seems to never give them any breaks? Why do they keep looking to the cross for hope?
Romans 8:26-39 OUR VICTORY IN CHRIST
In the same way, the Spirit helps us in our weakness. We do not know what we ought to pray for, but the Spirit himself intercedes for us with groans that words cannot express. And he who searches our hearts knows the mind of the Spirit, because the Spirit intercedes for the saints in accordance with God's will. And we know that in all things God works for the good of those who love him, who have been called according to his purpose. For those God foreknew he also predestined to be conformed to the likeness of his Son, that he might be the firstborn among many brothers. And those he predestined, he also called; those he called, he also justified; those he justified, he also glorified. What, then, shall we say in response to this? If God is for us, who can be against us? He who did not spare his own Son, but gave him up for us all—how will he not also, along with him, graciously give us all things? Who will bring any charge against those whom God has chosen? It is God who justifies. Who is he that condemns? Christ Jesus, who died—more than that, who was raised to life—is at the right hand of God and is also interceding for us. Who shall separate us from the love of Christ? Shall trouble or hardship or persecution or famine or nakedness or danger or sword? As it is written: "For your sake we face death all day long; we are considered as sheep to be slaughtered." No, in all these things we are more than conquerors through him who loved us. For I am convinced that neither death nor life, neither angels nor demons, neither the present nor the future, nor any powers, neither height nor depth, nor anything else in all creation, will be able to separate us from the love of God that is in Christ Jesus our Lord.
Jeremiah 29:11-14
For I know the plans I have for you," declares the LORD, "plans to prosper you and not to harm you, plans to give you hope and a future. Then you will call upon me and come and pray to me, and I will listen to you. You will seek me and find me when you seek me with all your heart. I will be found by you," declares the LORD, "and will bring you back from captivity. I will gather you from all the nations and places where I have banished you," declares the LORD, "and will bring you back to the place from which I carried you into exile."
My faith and hope in Christ allows me to hope and hope with a purpose. To understand that Christ has empowered me to live a life that is fruitful. A life abundant in what I have and what I have to come. Although life may not always be "rainbows and sunshine" life will continue to move on with or without me. So I place my hope in Christ love that can never be taken from me. I cannot be seperated by the one who is for me. We shouldn't ask how or why? But open our hearts to whats God has said and will do if we trust him. Christ is the image of the invisible God (James1:15). My Renaissance starts now and it starts in Him. Jesus.
A theme that has chased me around for the last few weeks has been perseverance. How do I get through what I am currently facing without succumbing to the pressure? How does my hope/faith in Christ become application in my existence here in on earth? How do I walk on water, without getting my feet wet? I still bust out the Rocky Quote about rainbows and sunshine...
I look to the Cross. I'm reminded today on Easter Sunday that it is very important to know that if Christ was not raised from the dead. All is for not. Christ died to pay the price that mankind could not repay God. The debt was far to large of amount that exceeded the riches of the world. I once heard Tony Campolo talk about the worst person to ever walk on the face of the earth? He asked the audience, some said Hitler, Ferdinand Marcos, Kim II Sung and the list went on. Campolo response to all of those answers were no. His response and answer to his question shocked me. Jesus. At that moment when Christ was crucified at the cross. Jesus was like a sponge that absorbed all evil and took upon himself all of mankind's sin past, present and future sins to satisfy Gods wrath. But on the third day Christ rose again and conquered death and gave way for man to have a relationship with God, a abundant and full life and hope that creates a rebirth, a renaissance in every man, woman and child.
God has opened a door for everyone to come and experience this renaissance (a renewal of life, vigor, interest, etc.; rebirth; revival: a moral renaissance) that comes through the resurrection in Christ. You may be reading this and thinking how improbable this may sound. Or how you have no need for a man hung on a cross. How can so many people be so wrong? How can they continue on, when life seems to never give them any breaks? Why do they keep looking to the cross for hope?
Romans 8:26-39 OUR VICTORY IN CHRIST
In the same way, the Spirit helps us in our weakness. We do not know what we ought to pray for, but the Spirit himself intercedes for us with groans that words cannot express. And he who searches our hearts knows the mind of the Spirit, because the Spirit intercedes for the saints in accordance with God's will. And we know that in all things God works for the good of those who love him, who have been called according to his purpose. For those God foreknew he also predestined to be conformed to the likeness of his Son, that he might be the firstborn among many brothers. And those he predestined, he also called; those he called, he also justified; those he justified, he also glorified. What, then, shall we say in response to this? If God is for us, who can be against us? He who did not spare his own Son, but gave him up for us all—how will he not also, along with him, graciously give us all things? Who will bring any charge against those whom God has chosen? It is God who justifies. Who is he that condemns? Christ Jesus, who died—more than that, who was raised to life—is at the right hand of God and is also interceding for us. Who shall separate us from the love of Christ? Shall trouble or hardship or persecution or famine or nakedness or danger or sword? As it is written: "For your sake we face death all day long; we are considered as sheep to be slaughtered." No, in all these things we are more than conquerors through him who loved us. For I am convinced that neither death nor life, neither angels nor demons, neither the present nor the future, nor any powers, neither height nor depth, nor anything else in all creation, will be able to separate us from the love of God that is in Christ Jesus our Lord.
Jeremiah 29:11-14
For I know the plans I have for you," declares the LORD, "plans to prosper you and not to harm you, plans to give you hope and a future. Then you will call upon me and come and pray to me, and I will listen to you. You will seek me and find me when you seek me with all your heart. I will be found by you," declares the LORD, "and will bring you back from captivity. I will gather you from all the nations and places where I have banished you," declares the LORD, "and will bring you back to the place from which I carried you into exile."
My faith and hope in Christ allows me to hope and hope with a purpose. To understand that Christ has empowered me to live a life that is fruitful. A life abundant in what I have and what I have to come. Although life may not always be "rainbows and sunshine" life will continue to move on with or without me. So I place my hope in Christ love that can never be taken from me. I cannot be seperated by the one who is for me. We shouldn't ask how or why? But open our hearts to whats God has said and will do if we trust him. Christ is the image of the invisible God (James1:15). My Renaissance starts now and it starts in Him. Jesus.
Sunday, April 1, 2007
It's snowing, but I feel Purple Rain
Weather widget says it's -6. Tomorrow we are suppose to have a high of -2 and a low of -9. Spring get here soon.
I never meant to cause you any sorrow
I never meant to cause you any pain
I only wanted to one time see you laughing
I only wanted to see you laughing in the purple rain
I only wanted to see you bathing in the purple rain
I never wanted to be your weekend lover
I only wanted to be some kind of friend
Baby I could never steal you from another
Its such a shame our friendship had to end
I never meant to cause you any pain
I only wanted to one time see you laughing
I only wanted to see you laughing in the purple rain
I only wanted to see you bathing in the purple rain
I never wanted to be your weekend lover
I only wanted to be some kind of friend
Baby I could never steal you from another
Its such a shame our friendship had to end
(Purple Rain - Prince)
A battle wages on. A war rages on and continues to lay siege within. I hope things are okay on that side of the moon. Theres nothing left we have in common, but the sky that blankets us both. So as I travel and continue to move forward. Remember I haven't forgotten you, unless it's because of choosen to.
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